cordelia learns how to ride a 2 wheel bike

what an incredible weekend. i am so proud to announce that cordelia can now ride a two wheel bike, WITHOUT training wheels!!!

let’s just be honest, that this isn’t something that just happened, keith has been training with her for a long time now… she practices her balance on her strider and her pedaling on her real bike. they go up and down the hall in the house and train. he decided to take her outside yesterday and give it a try. he was holding onto the back of her seat and had a feeling if he let go she would be fine and he was right! it was amazing and such a huge milestone. she was so proud of herself. she beamed from ear to ear all weekend and last night when i was laying with her in bed and asking her questions about her day like we always do, i asked “what was your favorite thing you did this weekend?” she quickly replied “RIDING MY BIKE!!!!”

amazing, just amazing. she is constantly teaching me how to be a better person and if you put your mind to something, you can do it.

cordelia turns 3.

instantly, i knew i was in love when i laid my eyes on her. she is and will forever be, the love of my life. you are never quite aware of how much one little being can change you and everything that you know about life, until it happens.

she is the light of my life. each day she helps me find the humor {and the patience} that are sometimes needed to get through the day. like when she asks me “do you gotta go poop or pee?” especially when we are in the middle of a very public place, or like when we sing the “poop song” this is our song, our goofy {somewhat inappropriate} song about poop. {poop on the floor, poop on your hair, poop on the CHAIR!} as we erupt into laughter after each silly place that there is poop, or like when she gets up so very early, stands at the side of my bed and softly rubs my face and whispers “mama, i awake. i awake mama” and then i swoop her into bed for a long morning snuggle.

she has taught me how to be a better person. she has taught me how to be just a little bit more patient “mama stop rushin’ me” and she has taught me how to love like i never knew i could. i look at her and can’t even imagine what we did before her.

3 years went by in a blink. cordelia, you truly are my sunshine and you will always be my little baby doll.

i love you so, so very much. happy, happy birthday!!

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c is getting so, so big. she will soon be transferring to the “pre-school” room at school, where they will start to learn phonics. Are you kidding me?? That’s insane.

We had such an amazing and busy few weeks. We spent the middle of october at disneyland and it was so fun, yet so exhausting. c loved riding all of the rides, watching the parades and saying hello to the characters. she also loved the fireworks, and swimming at the hotel. she told us she wanted to stay forever… we were ready to come home though. lol

we finally picked a color for c’s room and painted it this weekend. for the past 6 months it has been a camouflage of colors, i ended up going with boring grey, but it looks so great. we love it.

c is getting such a sense of humor. she is always telling funny jokes, making up funny songs and talking about poop. she thinks poop is utterly hilarious, and how can you blame her? it is.

she has been calling keith, keith lately and although he HATES it, i think it is hilarious and i egg her on. this weekend she told him “keith, STOP TALKING TO ME!” and then later she said “no, don’t touch me keith!” such attitude, so early, that can’t be good. also, she is a champion nose picker, she even does the double nose pick. again, i think it’s kind of funny and keith is always telling her to stop. oh well, she won’t pick her nose forever, right? wink wink.

cordelia’s first bmx race

today, while driving home from c’s first BMX race, my brain flashed forward 15 years. c was graduating from high school and the video at her party started with the race we had just experienced. me screaming like a crazy lady “go cordelia go!!!! go fast cordelia!!!!!” with the camera firmly in hand and keith wobbling behind her like a little duck, his arms teetering on each side of her making sure she wouldn’t fall, pushing her up the big hills she couldn’t quite make up herself.

i have to admit that i almost cried.

that was when i really realized that THIS, THIS is what being a parent is. watching her grow as a person, learn new things and push herself to try things, interesting things, as you watch scared as hell, but proud as can be as you beam from the sidelines.

honestly, it was the most amazing thing to watch her push herself. “mama i wanta trophy!” and she did get a trophy. {even though there were only 2 racers in her class and she got 2nd..} she felt like she had just conquered the world.

last night it was even more special when i went in to tuck her into bed, and her trophy was laying next to her, one of her arms gently laying over it.

we just love her and adore her so very much. she is so incredibly special to us.

{this amazing little girl has forever changed us}













if seems as though c is growing right before my eyes. i mean, i totally get it that she is getting bigger every day, but it has become so apparent just this past week.

cordelia is so CHATTY, she talks a lot {she must get it from me} and she sings songs constantly. if she isn’t talking, she is singing and if she isn’t singing she is sleeping. she probably sings in her sleep too :P

i sneak in her room every night before keith and i head off to bed… i quietly tip toe in to cover her up, sometimes move her {she sleeps like a crazy kid} and give her a kiss. we recently got a side railing for her bed because she kept telling us that she was falling out of bed in the middle of the night. so, last night i go in to do my regular routine, and thank god i did. she was hanging precariously on the edge of the bed. one foot propped up on her head board and the other dangling about 6 inches from the ground. i hurried back to the bedroom and burst into laughter and i told keith “hurry come see!!” it was hysterical. keith joked that the only thing holding her in bed was static electricity…. i carefully moved her back and kissed her goodnight…

our sweet little girl is getting so big. she is 38″ tall and could easily pass for a 4 year old. she is in size 4t pants, although they can be a bit baggy in the bum. she has got legs for days, but still insists on walking on her tiptoes…

c’s favorite color today is white. her bedroom is still 100 different colors because being the indecisive person that i am, i still can’t pick one. when you ask her what color she wants her room she always say WHITE. that’s what color it started as. hysterical.

we {keith} is helping c kick the pacifier habit again. she has now successfully slept without it 2 nights in a row. she doesn’t really even ask for it anymore and this morning she told me “i don’t need a daffy, i a big girl, i growin up” to which i made a sad face and she replied “don’t worry i still your baby doll mama”

{heart melted.}

breaking up is hard to do.

i finally made the choice, today is the day, i told myself. today is the day that i would be giving up the daffy {pacifier}, entirely. it wasn’t an easy decision. i fight with this one constantly. the daffy is pretty much the only thing left of my little, bitty baby, but i know she is ready and i guess i am too.

so, we searched the entire house for all of her daffy’s, put them in a box, wrapped the box and addressed it to elmo. {her friend, elmo, would be giving her daffy’s to little babies that need them.}

c was totally into the game this morning. eagerly searching through the house “i found one!” she put them all in the box, had one last suck and that was that. i wrapped the box and addressed it. i asked c where elmo lives and she quickly replied “elmo’s world!” so, off to elmo’s world they went. it was all fine and dandy until nap time…

poor baby cordelia, she has been carrying on for 30 minutees. i finally told her i would try to go find one. i found one {that i had cut the tip off} and gave it to her. she looked at me in horror, “BUT THIS ONE IS BROKEN!!!!! IT’S RUINED!!!!” she said between sobs.

my heart ached. why did i decide to do this today? i kept telling her she is so big and strong and that she can do this… she just looked at me with those big blue eyes welled up with tears and yelled, “BUT IT’S RUINED!”


i finally got her calmed down enough to read a few books… then more tears. then, keith came up and she insisted that he put her for a nap, so i said okay. i am pretty sure she thought he would give in, but he didn’t… he hasn’t come down yet, but all is quiet up there, so i guess it is going okay.

i will keep you posted on the status of “breaking up with daffy.” this is pretty much the hardest thing i have ever done. it just breaks my heart to see her so upset. i just took her world and turned it upside down. :/

in other news. this child is the cutest damn thing i have ever met. i know i say this all the time, but i just want her to stay THIS age. she is so incredibly sweet and lovable. she is talking up a storm and in full sentences. her new favorite thing to say is “what?!” “what you just say?!” it’s pretty funny because i know she got that from keith and i.

it has been a fun summer so far. she has been swimming a lot and at night we go to the skatepark and she rides with keith on his bmx bike. she loves it!

{it is so magical to watch this little girl grow. she has us completely smitten and we wouldn’t have it any other way}


{24 hour update: bedtime didn’t go as well as we had hoped it would… she was so upset and apparently wrapped so tightly around both of our fingers that we couldn’t listen to her cry anymore. i went up there and gave her a daffy. she looked at me like i was her saving grace. she stood up, threw her arms around me and started crying harder. so incredibly sweet. keith and i decided she is definitely still our little baby. we will try again when she is 3.}




every day when c comes home from school she has a small slip of paper that lets me know how her day was. It says what she ate, how she slept, and usually a little synopsis. This was today’s:

“Cordelia had so much fun in Apple Red today! During outside playtime cordelia was running On the playground with her friends! Her hair bow fell off her head and was hanging on her face; so she told her teachers “it’s ok, I’ll just be a pirate!!” [because it was hanging over her eye like an eye patch]

I die. I can’t even make this stuff up.


cordelia has been so sweet, as always. she is saying the funniest stuff lately. 

“oh i have a great idea!!!! mama it’s yor birfday!!!”

“you my best frend”

“no, no, i don’t like that”

“no don’t hit your friends! you gettin a time out!”

“ohhhhh this is so so tasty!”

“come on guys! let’s dance!”

“mama where i doughing today?”

“i so sick, i just so sick” 

“mama i need a snacckkk”

oh and while you are here, why not head over to the Parents Magazine Photo Contest and vote for Cordelia! Someone needs to send this girl to college LOL! You can vote once per day and if you could please help us out that would be fabulous!!


growing pains

c is officially in size 4t footy aj’s [c slang for pj’s]. the 3t’s were too short in the arms and her little toes were all curled under.

c: mama those aj’s are for a baby [pointing to her old ones…]
m: are you a baby?
c: no! i a big gurl!

SIGH. she let’s me know at least 3 times a day that she isn’t a baby, except when she wants to snuggle and she climbs into my lap and declares “mama I a baby, snuggle me?”

april was a blur and so was may, JUNE IS HERE, can you say HOW?

we spent the beginning of the may in san diego visiting my brother and his family. it was so fun! cordelia loved playing with izzy and alex. it was so fun to see them together. the last time we had been together was last year when rowen was born. cordelia followed them both around constantly and LOVED it. she even told me she wanted to stay there and live with them LOL. i had izzy convinced that cordelia was staying… “cordelia staying with us!” sorry babe, but we will be back soon now that you are finally our west coast neighbors.

cordelia is huge. she is talking up a storm and she says the most hilarious things ever. the other day i was trying to tell her how to drive her barbie jeep and she stopped looked at me and said “mama you drivin me NUTS!” i of course bursted into laughter and made her say it over and over again, because that’s what you do in that situation haha.

she also has been saying that she is “super cordelia” lately. she will run into the room and exclaim “i super cordelia! super cordelia saves the day!!!!” when asked what her super power is she says “i zoom!! i zoom to the moon!!!!”

this child sings, constantly. we were sitting outside and she started singing a song about “ouchies” keith and i sat and listened quietly, careful to not interrupt the magic that was unraveeling before us. “don’t wanna get an ouchie, because ouchies are bad and your blankie doesn’t wana get an ouchie, and dad doesn’t wanna get an ouchie and I don’t wanna get an ouchie and mammas boobies don’t wanna get an ouchie [after which i lost it and erupted into laughter egging her on even more] and you don’t wanna use a bandaid, because bandaids make it worse!” it went on and on.


she has been riding her strider bike a lot more lately. keith has her convinced that she has to practice so she can go to the “race track”. apparently, he needs a racing buddy. LOL. regardless, she seems to love it and is so proud of herself. last night they were riding their bikes and she said “mama i goin to the PARK!!”

she reads a ton lately too. it isn’t too uncommon for me to find her in her playhouse, playroom or her room quietly reading to her “friends”. she has a lot of the books that we read memorized so it’s pretty cool to hear her “read.”

c’s babydolls mean even more to her now then in recent months. she cares for them like they are real. she loves them so much. it is so sweet to see how gentle and kind she is with them, except when they are in timeout. “No, we don’t hit our friends! You gettin a timeout!” The other day she had like 10 of her stuffed animals and babies in timeout for like hours. it was hilarious.

mama [and] dada you my best friends. sweetness just oozes out of this child and we are truly captivated by her unconditional love, humor and sweetness.

how did we get so lucky?